Keep On Pushin'

I have been going pretty strong to finish up my requirements for the UBBT. I have been determined to complete as many of the requirements as possible. Then....wham! What happened? I don't understand how I could change my way of thinking so quickly.

I have had some problems with aches and pains that make working out a bit tougher than usual. I told myself not to worry, they would eventually go away, and I would feel back to my usual self. But that didn't happen, and still hasn't happened. The worst of it is the back of my right knee and my shoulders. I have had chronic problems with my shoulders anyways, but the discomfort was moving into the armpit and chest area. I've also had issues with my left ankle from a climbing incident, that isn't too bad until I try to do my forms, or drive the lift equipment at work that requires me to stand up. Both of these requiring the use of muscles in the ankle for balance.

I've talked to a few people this week about getting myself behind in abs and push ups. Because of this, I have had to do a lot of them every day. Three times last week, I had people say to me, "is it really worth it?" "Is it really that important to complete the requirements?" I don't know why or how I did it, but I managed to let this kind of thinking sink into my own. The world isn't going to end if I don't complete all my push ups and ab work. That, along with my aches and pains, gave me good reason, or so I let myself begin to believe, to slack off on what I needed to do to complete my requirements. I slacked off for about 3 days and then snapped out of it. I realized that yes, it really is that important. Maybe not to the rest of the world, but to me, it is. I have been determined to finish the required amount of push ups and sit ups, and I still should be. I don't want to give up. I am not doing this for anyone else but myself. The rest of the world will not change if I do 39,000 push ups, or 29,000. But I will, and slacking off for 3 days has only gotten me one thing...further behind.

So I may, or may not do as many push ups as required, but I am not going to give up without a fight, so to speak. I can't just abandon my determination. I pushed myself this far, and we are too close to the end to give up. I started to get back on track yesterday, although I have modified some of my push ups to being on my knees or on the wall, but I am doing them. This way, I can work hard on what I need to do, and take care of my body at the same time. I have never been a quitter, and I don't intend to start now.